Thankful that God speaks our language, or at least that He can get through to us after a lot of work on our (I say our, since I'm slow in getting things) part (ok, at times, I"m not always stubborn, really).
I think Motherhood, or any relationship, grows you from the inside out. We are still in the fun phase of potty training. We've got 2 out of 3 pretty much trained. But in my expectations, I get frustrated and am learning to stay consistent, but let go. I keep finding I do too much for my kids, I need to stand back and let them make mistakes, it's sooooo hard. (Especially, when I get to clean it up......).
IN the really tough phase (I admit, I've cried over this process, twice in two days and even made a call to my Mommy).....but in it I'm learning to love, beyond my own end goal! I'm always learning what language my kids speak, and at times how to get through to them. Man, that's a hard one. But I thankfully am getting to let go of my own stuff in this process. I don't know how to fully put it in to words, it's be tough. But I hope I'm getting it, too.
Let's just say I think God has more grace than I do at times. That my perfectionist self, needs to get over it's self, and I'm growing up along w/my 3 wonderful boys (sometimes 4 on certain days, ha, ha).
Well...the blogs are few between, but I felt I could take the time since my hubby is home for a day off, yes, you heard it, he's actually taking a few days off (and taking me to S.F.!). Yeah!
Have a great end of summer..... and I hope to get on more often....w/my wonderful dial up!
Friday, August 27, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Do not lose heart....
when doing good. I think I'm paraphrasing a Bible verse.....Do not lose heart...when doing good.
I've learned a lot (still am) from moving with 3 toddlers, a good amount of love and help, and the adjustments of expectations of living in the 'country'.
I'll start off with saying, as much as I grew up in a well run home, and I understand how it should run, I sometimes have a hard time self disiplining myself.......I judge myself, but can't fully change to meet my own expectations. I'm hoping to learn to love myself more....and still hope to change for the better.
So....again...moving with 3 little kids was a lot. A new house, a new layout, new rules, trying to unpack (I still haven't full unpacked my clothes or my office).....and jus the everyday things of life, laundry, cooking and basic cleaning. I was feeling quite overwhelemed due to the fact that I"m really not that organized, somewhat of a pack rat, and very social in personality, living in the country......with the responsiblities of catching lizards and such things in my own home.
I think I felt sunk for about 3 weeks. My major turning point to coming up for air was my Dad praying for me....I called to say Happy Father's Day.....and I got a prayer that changed the direction I had been going emotionally. A burden was lifted w/that prayer....and my heart ready to keep trying.
I got to go on vacation to see my family for almost 2 weeks. (They recently moved, so it was pretty fun). A real vacation of family, fun and lots of help.
Upon getting home, I realized I did love vacation life, but am now adjusting to being home, my outlook and heart much lighter.
I am enjoying less lizards in the house now, a dryer that works, though I still use my clothes line, too. A garden that is only 1/2 eaten by deer. The boys have and are learning our new rules and their new set ups.
And now we are potty training....I say we, yes, I know how to do it myself....but I'm learning to train 3 individual little men. Small success are happening, and i'm learning it's not always about how good I do, but who they are and how well they will do in the time they need.
Just wanted to stay in touch. Would love to know what you all are up to.....
I've learned a lot (still am) from moving with 3 toddlers, a good amount of love and help, and the adjustments of expectations of living in the 'country'.
I'll start off with saying, as much as I grew up in a well run home, and I understand how it should run, I sometimes have a hard time self disiplining myself.......I judge myself, but can't fully change to meet my own expectations. I'm hoping to learn to love myself more....and still hope to change for the better.
So....again...moving with 3 little kids was a lot. A new house, a new layout, new rules, trying to unpack (I still haven't full unpacked my clothes or my office).....and jus the everyday things of life, laundry, cooking and basic cleaning. I was feeling quite overwhelemed due to the fact that I"m really not that organized, somewhat of a pack rat, and very social in personality, living in the country......with the responsiblities of catching lizards and such things in my own home.
I think I felt sunk for about 3 weeks. My major turning point to coming up for air was my Dad praying for me....I called to say Happy Father's Day.....and I got a prayer that changed the direction I had been going emotionally. A burden was lifted w/that prayer....and my heart ready to keep trying.
I got to go on vacation to see my family for almost 2 weeks. (They recently moved, so it was pretty fun). A real vacation of family, fun and lots of help.
Upon getting home, I realized I did love vacation life, but am now adjusting to being home, my outlook and heart much lighter.
I am enjoying less lizards in the house now, a dryer that works, though I still use my clothes line, too. A garden that is only 1/2 eaten by deer. The boys have and are learning our new rules and their new set ups.
And now we are potty training....I say we, yes, I know how to do it myself....but I'm learning to train 3 individual little men. Small success are happening, and i'm learning it's not always about how good I do, but who they are and how well they will do in the time they need.
Just wanted to stay in touch. Would love to know what you all are up to.....
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