Do not lose heart....

when doing good. I think I'm paraphrasing a Bible verse.....Do not lose heart...when doing good.
I've learned a lot (still am) from moving with 3 toddlers, a good amount of love and help, and the adjustments of expectations of living in the 'country'.
I'll start off with saying, as much as I grew up in a well run home, and I understand how it should run, I sometimes have a hard time self disiplining myself.......I judge myself, but can't fully change to meet my own expectations. I'm hoping to learn to love myself more....and still hope to change for the better.
So....again...moving with 3 little kids was a lot. A new house, a new layout, new rules, trying to unpack (I still haven't full unpacked my clothes or my office).....and jus the everyday things of life, laundry, cooking and basic cleaning. I was feeling quite overwhelemed due to the fact that I"m really not that organized, somewhat of a pack rat, and very social in personality, living in the country......with the responsiblities of catching lizards and such things in my own home.
I think I felt sunk for about 3 weeks. My major turning point to coming up for air was my Dad praying for me....I called to say Happy Father's Day.....and I got a prayer that changed the direction I had been going emotionally. A burden was lifted w/that prayer....and my heart ready to keep trying.
I got to go on vacation to see my family for almost 2 weeks. (They recently moved, so it was pretty fun). A real vacation of family, fun and lots of help.
Upon getting home, I realized I did love vacation life, but am now adjusting to being home, my outlook and heart much lighter.
I am enjoying less lizards in the house now, a dryer that works, though I still use my clothes line, too. A garden that is only 1/2 eaten by deer. The boys have and are learning our new rules and their new set ups.
And now we are potty training....I say we, yes, I know how to do it myself....but I'm learning to train 3 individual little men. Small success are happening, and i'm learning it's not always about how good I do, but who they are and how well they will do in the time they need.
Just wanted to stay in touch. Would love to know what you all are up to.....

How can you put the life into words

But....it helps to get to. So thankful for blogs....which for me can be like a journal of life.
{I am currently on hold....and using the time to blog, oh, wait they cut me off, I get to call back}

Well, I'm hearing my kids playing in their room, trying to get some important 'paper work' done.

We have our house on the market, and got a quick offer....but still showing it here and there, so that means I need to stay on top of my house (and chore chart).
I like to add craziness (but really it's just real life and me in training)....we are potty training (we = me mostly) Colby, with some interest from my twins, Kyle and Ryan. Mostly Ry-ry likes to sit.....and just hold it for 1/2 a day, but hey that's progress....really! This means lots and lots of stories, so thankful for library books!!!! {variety for me to read at least}

I must interject some fun kids stories....I just heard Kyle cry....and then Ryan ask "ok?"......so sweet! All if fine....really. Earlier this AM, Kyle sat in Colby's spot at our dining room table and was giving his stuffed doggy a drink from his sippee....so cute. I love that they are loving...for the most part.

So, house on the market, keeping my house clean, Ryan not feeling too hot....Roseola.....not so fun, but not too serious....just cooped up till this weekend, when we are no longer contagious. And I can make a gluten free/dairy free pizza for a party we are going to. I know, you're jealous and wish you could have some, too.

Let me add to my list of fun, planning a shopping trip. Still doing the math on what I need to make a carrot cake for 80 ppl and a choc for the rest.....wedding cakes! Yes, I do one a year...AND I'm in the wedding. Thankfully, my Mom, is going to build, decorate and deliver the cake, I just get to shop for it and bake it. She is even whipping up the gallons of frosting, too. So I get to alter my dress, simple ( I hope)......and this girl needs nylons....I used to scoff at them, but these legs in my cute spring dress will be a bit warmer (and not so white).

Adam, my busy hubby, is working through the weekend, too, so it's all alone that I attempt this and not sure how I am squeezing my shopping in to this, late at night, I'm sure. {When you're wonderful hold music stops, and it's scary to wait and see if they'll come back with this great music to let you know if you'll be cut off again for the 3rd or 4th time after waiting for 15 mins each time, am I complaining, no. Just makes your heart stop for a min.}

It's good to hear the laughter from the other room, and know all is well.

I'll hopefully let you know if I really get time to make my own laundry detergent this week, or my other small projects that I'm attempting in the effort to spend more wisely.

Back to waiting .....to see if they dropped me again.....oooh, yeah the 'bad' music is on again.....


It sounds like I'm dumping my to-do list here...oops. Just so many things I'd like to do, but have to just try each day to do what I can.